haven't been blogging for more than half a year~ where have I been?

were all over head the passing days... tears, laughter, smiling faces, worries, complaints, sorrow eyes, anger ... all emotions came along with stresses, workloads, supports, studies, works...
 
my way of searching purpose has simply started without noticed. I am never a good writer... but I wrote from my hearts, my true heart.
 
my friends, all friends who support since day 1 I were not deserved to have sometimes, have left to different directions and are heading to different professions.
I seemed to be lacking behind in some ways... i said to myself, "it would never be late if I work my very hard (and best) on it and prove to myself I have some (kind of) experience and can and able to achieve better and do well"
 
the world keeps changing without letting you slow down sometimes. i appreciated everyone who have given me chances to grow, to learn, to make mistakes. God, my truly saviors, has taken me a journey towards adventures of happiness as well as challenges.
 
from the day i stepped down from my studies in GIS, I knew I have to face the reality and the real world. Some adviced me not to take risk to test yourself (or your base talent) so soon, some commented me as a perfectician seeing the world too perfect ... I have to taste the world myself so as to know who's right. but the questions come up...
will I still be me when I am in the reality? will I "tune" myself to fit in the institutions in the working environment (cultures) soon after I start working...
 
sometimes, it wasn't you want to change... but the environment does change you without noticed you. The true me would like to stay true to God ALWAYS, but I am afraid to act wrong in my position as a Christian in case of dilemma... the true me would like to be honest to myself (and to everyone) in all circumstances I face, but it seems usually a problematic causation ~
 
so ... writing all these I should reporting some recent life who has regularly updated this blog :)
 
Winny is doing well ... with a tiny little annoying around as usual*^ I am fine, and thanks comforting me when you guys saw me stressed & down* :")
 
* finished cources of the last semesters in late April and exams in mid-May
* worked a little bit hard for the unpaid & paid intern work
* travelling for a while in May & June
* hiked a hour and half finally on Lamma AGAIN
* I love nature * excluding all mosquito bites
* discovered my love to the BU Library finally & will miss it after the expiry day of my student card in late June
* sometimes I would also love to stay quitely in a coffee shop and do a bit writing...I wrote randomly recently & should have work on it asap~
 * soon update my trips

body's here, mind flies miles away as early as april

Lines for today:

                      "When I decide on something it has to be perfect," quoted from tennis icon Andre Agassi in Reader's Digest June2010 :)

frustrated ! dont have motive to do anything

China & the World paper still haven't finished yet....

 what the heal i am doing....

so frustrated...